I've been feeling pretty run down lately. I've literally been getting home from work, putting sweats on and climbing under a duvet to eat a takeaway. Some call it Seasonal Affective Disorder (or SAD for short!) but in my case it's purely a shitty and ineffective coping mechanism that I'm blaming on bad weather.
Every now and again I go through a day or a week or a month where I just treat myself really badly; I drink too much, eat too much (of all the wrong things), I don't exercise and I don't really see or speak to people if I can help it. I'm the opposite of a 'picture of health' all year round and I've noticed that these 'binge months' are starting to effect me much more than they used to. I guess it's a vicious circle because the more I neglect what is good for me the worse I feel.
I'm going to try to nip this in the bud this month before the anxiety increases to the point where it starts to become a bigger problem than a few nerves before a meeting. This is the gameplan:
- Stop drinking fizzy drinks: Let's be honest, I'm already a case study for diabetes and it runs on both sides of my family. This should be pretty easy despite the fridges of free fizzy drinks we have in the office as I don't drink many anyway (3 cans a week, if that). Sometimes I kid myself that a Coke Zero isn't bad for me, but we know it is. We knoooowwwwww.
- Do some social exercise: I literally don't exercise. I quit the gym because I couldn't stay motivated by treadmills and cycling machines. I'm going to tag along to some classes that my girlfriends go to and see if that helps my motivation. I'm also going to get back into group badminton as my husband goes every week and I could easily go with him.
- Eat cleaner: I eat for convenience and that usually means I eat badly. Occasionally I get it right and the stars align with all the Gods of Health and I have everything I need to make a quick and healthy meal sat in my fridge when I get home. The other 350 days of the year I get a KFC on the way home from work. It's honestly getting really bad, yet I'm sat wondering why I feel so tired/ depressed all the time. EAT A GOD DAMN VEGETABLE SIAN.
- Get a f*cking hobby: I don't do anything for myself. I can't remember the last time I had any sort of hobby or activity that I've really enjoyed (does Reddit count?) and the only thing I get any real enjoyment out of when it comes to 'past-times' is blogging. I've put off reaching out for loads of reasons (money, time etc.) but I think being able to develop a new skill would make me feel like I was accomplishing something and might help to mediate that drowning feeling I get when I think about my to-do list both at work and at home.
- Educate myself: I've started using MyFitnessPal now that I've got an iPhone again. I find it really difficult to track things like carbs, fats, protein and sugar intake but the app does a really good job of filling all this stuff out based on what you've eaten, and will advise you of how you're tracking against your daily allowance. I'm aiming for roughly 1200 calories per day but I'm trying to focus more on what I'm getting out of the diet than purely the calories. So far I've found that it reminds me to eat vegetables and also it keeps track of the steps I've done (as long as my phone is in my pocket). It's not perfect but it's really helping so far.
I'm genuinely really interested in what you guys do when you feel like this? I don't want to go extreme with anything and sign up for a Tough Mudder and a Lemon Juice Diet as I know I won't follow it. If I decided now to have a month off wine I'd probably have broken the detox by this evening. I'd rather make small changes that I can stick with for a longer time period. Advice welcome!